Friday, December 11, 2009


I don't have much faith. I realized that today after my landlord opted to raise the rent $150 over what we have been paying for the last year. It seems silly to me that I am worried that God will not provide for my family and me. I have never really trusted God with all my heart in these kind of matters, but I really want to begin now. Over the past couple months hours at work have been steadily decreasing and because of that paychecks have also decreased. Fortunately, God has seen fit to provide people to randomly give us money and/or food at just the right time. As much as I praise God for things in the past, I still have a hard time trusting him now. I have been meditating on this issue for the day and have come up with the fact that I have been burned by people so much over my life that I just transition that lack of trust to God. Well, that is not fair to God, he has always been there for me and has never failed me. So, I am trying super hard to trust God and all the things that he has for me. I know his ways are best. As John the Baptist said, "He must increase, and I must decrease." I am trying very hard to keep Jesus as the center of my life and not myself or anyone else. It's sad, my instant reaction when typing this last line was that, because of my good works, God will reward me! What a bunch of hulabaloo! I know God can and will do what he wants when he wants to, but to reward someone for good works is lame. I don't want Jesus to know me by my good works, but to know me by the relationship I have with him and the faith that he has given me. I want Jesus, on that judgment day, to look at me and then the Father and say, "I know Jake and he is my friend. We've been through life together and we love each other. Father, I died for Jake and he truly knows me. He has been washed and purified of any sin by my blood. Father, there is no need to extend your wrath on Jake, he is spotless."

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Supposed to do?

I haven't done what I have been called to do in so long I sometimes forget the reason God put me on this earth! I get so wrapped up in life I forget all about the fact that I am to live by faith and not by sight. It is obvious to me that what has happened in my past concerning pastoring was only a foretaste to what is to come. I have only been witness to a little bit of what God is going to use me to do. There is seldom a day that goes by that I do not think of God's promise to me, "I will use your voice for the expansion of my Kingdom." As plain as day I heard God tell me those words. This was a little over 10 years ago!

I have been learning and planning and praying. In my studies I have found the Word of God to be most effective in teaching me to be pliable and willing to move toward Jesus in better relationship. It is obvious to me that reconciliation was made not when I did anything, but rather when Jesus paid it all on the cross and bridged the gap for me and the rest of humanity. The verses that I have been meditating on for the last couple days have come out of the fifth chapter of second Corinthians.

2 Corinthians 5

Our Heavenly Dwelling
1For we know that ifA)">(A) the tent that isB)">(B) our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God,C)">(C) a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. 2For in this tentD)">(D) we groan, longing toE)">(E) put on our heavenly dwelling, 3if indeed by putting it ona]">[a] we may not be found naked. 4For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened—not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortalF)">(F) may be swallowed up by life. 5He who has prepared us for this very thing is God,G)">(G) who has given us the Spirit as a guarantee.

6So we are always of good courage. We know thatH)">(H) while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, 7forI)">(I) we walk by faith, notJ)">(J) by sight. 8Yes, we are of good courage, and weK)">(K) would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. 9So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim toL)">(L) please him. 10ForM)">(M) we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ,N)">(N) so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil.

The Ministry of Reconciliation
11Therefore, knowingO)">(O) the fear of the Lord, we persuade others. ButP)">(P) what we are is known to God, and I hope it is known also to your conscience. 12Q)">(Q) We are not commending ourselves to you again butR)">(R) giving you cause to boast about us, so that you may be able to answer those who boast about outward appearance and not about what is in the heart. 13For if weS)">(S) are beside ourselves, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you. 14For the love of ChristT)">(T) controls us, because we have concluded this: thatU)">(U) one has died for all, therefore all have died; 15and he died for all,V)">(V) that those who live might no longer live for themselves butW)">(W) for him who for their sake died and was raised.

16From now on, therefore,X)">(X) we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we once regarded Christ according to the flesh, we regard him thus no longer. 17Therefore, if anyone isY)">(Y) in Christ, he isZ)">(Z) a new creation.b]">[b]AA)">(AA) The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 18All this is from God,AB)">(AB) who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave usAC)">(AC) the ministry of reconciliation; 19that is, in Christ God was reconcilingc]">[c] the world to himself,AD)">(AD) not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to usAE)">(AE) the message of reconciliation. 20Therefore,AF)">(AF) we are ambassadors for Christ,AG)">(AG) God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. 21AH)">(AH) For our sake he made him to be sinAI)">(AI) who knew no sin, so that in him we might becomeAJ)">(AJ) the righteousness of God.

  1. 2 Corinthians 5:3 Some manuscripts putting it off
  2. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Or creature
  3. 2 Corinthians 5:19 Or God was in Christ, reconciling
Cross references:
  1. 2 Corinthians 5:1 : 2 Pet 1:13, 14
  2. 2 Corinthians 5:1 : 2 Corinthians 4:7
  3. 2 Corinthians 5:1 : Mark 14:58
  4. 2 Corinthians 5:2 : Rom 8:23
  5. 2 Corinthians 5:2 : 1 Cor 15:53, 54
  6. 2 Corinthians 5:4 : 1 Cor 15:54
  7. 2 Corinthians 5:5 : Rom 8:23; 2 Corinthians 1:22
  8. 2 Corinthians 5:6 : Heb 11:13, 14
  9. 2 Corinthians 5:7 : John 20:29; 2 Corinthians 4:18
  10. 2 Corinthians 5:7 : 1 Cor 13:12
  11. 2 Corinthians 5:8 : Phil 1:23
  12. 2 Corinthians 5:9 : Col 1:10; 1 Thess 4:1
  13. 2 Corinthians 5:10 : Matt 25:31, 32; Rom 14:10; Acts 10:42
  14. 2 Corinthians 5:10 : Psalm 62:12
  15. 2 Corinthians 5:11 : Job 31:23; Acts 9:31; Heb 10:31; Jude 23
  16. 2 Corinthians 5:11 : 2 Corinthians 4:2
  17. 2 Corinthians 5:12 : 2 Corinthians 3:1
  18. 2 Corinthians 5:12 : 2 Corinthians 1:14
  19. 2 Corinthians 5:13 : 2 Corinthians 11:1, 16, 17; 12:6, 11
  20. 2 Corinthians 5:14 : Acts 18:5
  21. 2 Corinthians 5:14 : Rom 5:15
  22. 2 Corinthians 5:15 : Rom 6:11, 12; Rom 14:7
  23. 2 Corinthians 5:15 : 2 Corinthians 12:10
  24. 2 Corinthians 5:16 : Gal 2:6; Phil 3:7, 8; Col 2:11; 1 Tim 5:21
  25. 2 Corinthians 5:17 : 2 Corinthians 12:2; Rom 16:7; Gal 1:22
  26. 2 Corinthians 5:17 : John 3:3; Rom 6:4
  27. 2 Corinthians 5:17 : Isa 43:18, 19; Rev 21:5; Isa 65:17; Eph 2:15; 4:24; Heb 8:13
  28. 2 Corinthians 5:18 : Col 1:20; Rom 5:10; 1 John 2:2
  29. 2 Corinthians 5:18 : Rom 5:11
  30. 2 Corinthians 5:19 : Psalm 32:2; Rom 4:8
  31. 2 Corinthians 5:19 : 2 Corinthians 5:18
  32. 2 Corinthians 5:20 : Eph 6:20; Mal 2:7; Gal 4:14
  33. 2 Corinthians 5:20 : 2 Corinthians 6:1
  34. 2 Corinthians 5:21 : Rom 8:3; Gal 3:13; Rom 4:25
  35. 2 Corinthians 5:21 : 1 Pet 2:22
  36. 2 Corinthians 5:21 : Rom 1:17; 1 Cor 1:30
The reason I posted all those verses is so that there is context to what I am about to say. The footnotes are for further study if you choose. Courtesy of

We are bought and paid for, redeemed and chosen. The believer will be in heaven forever, but what of life on earth? What about the ones that are called to do more than just work a normal job and pass life on by without a care in the world? How about the one's that God has chosen for His work? It seems that this passage eludes to the fact that we are "ambassadors for Christ" (v.20). If we are ambassadors, then we have an important job that can never be accomplished. Imagine, I was you to make fire, but you have no ability to make fire. I want you to produce more skin cells, but you have no idea how to do that. I want you to make the engine in your car work, but you have no idea how to make the engine work anymore than you know how to make fire! But that doesn't stop you from turning the key, or lighting a match, or eating food so your body can replenish itself and make new cells! It is the same with pastoral work. Pastors are chosen by God to bring people that are lost into a relationship with God and make them grow! Impossible! There is no way a person can make someone else have a relationship with God and make them grow, no way. But that doesn't stop us from preaching does it? It is amazing the things Jesus asks, no better yet, tells us to do: 7And proclaim as you go, saying,K)">(K) 'The kingdom of heaven is at hand.' 8L)">(L) Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers,b]">[b] cast out demons.M)">(M) You received without paying; give without pay..... 16V)">(V) "Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so beW)">(W) wise as serpents andX)">(X) innocent as doves. 17Beware of men, forY)">(Y) they will deliver you over to courts and flog youZ)">(Z) in their synagogues, 18AA)">(AA) and you will be dragged before governors and kings for my sake,AB)">(AB) to bear witness before them and the Gentiles. 19AC)">(AC) WhenAD)">(AD) they deliver you over,AE)">(AE) do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say, forAF)">(AF) what you are to say will be given to you in that hour. 20AG)">(AG) For it is not you who speak, butAH)">(AH) the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. 21AI)">(AI) Brother will deliver brother over to death, and the father his child, and children will rise against parents and have them put to death, 22AJ)">(AJ) and you will be hated by all for my name’s sake.AK)">(AK) But the one who endures to the end will be saved. 23When theyAL)">(AL) persecute you in one town,AM)">(AM) flee to the next, for truly, I say to you, you will not have gone through all the towns of IsraelAN)">(AN) before the Son of Man comes.

Believe it or not Jesus told us to do some amazing things that we are not even doing! The question that comes to my mind is, what will happen to me if I do these things? Will I be put in jail, ridiculed, mocked, beaten, ignored, laughed at, or will anything happen at all? The only real danger comes from keeping my mouth shut:
28AndAS)">(AS) do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear himAT)">(AT) who can destroy both soul and body in hell.f]">[f]

O Holy Night

Just wanted to pass on the Christmas song that I am most into at this point in time. I had never heard the other verses until we sang them at church last Sunday. The words are Gospel and I love Jesus even more because of this song. Check it out!

O holy night, the stars are brightly shining;
It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming,
Here came the wise men from Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus in lowly manger,
In all our trials born to be our Friend!
He knows our need—to our weakness is no stranger.
Behold your King; before Him lowly bend!
Behold your King; before Him lowly bend!

Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His Gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother
And in His Name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy Name!
Christ is the Lord! O praise His name forever!
His pow’r and glory evermore proclaim!
His pow’r and glory evermore proclaim!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Come on!!

I have been trying my best to listen to God. I have been listening to many preachers on podcasts and on youtube preaching the truth. All of that is awesome and I love that there are so many men willing to preach the Word every week or every time they are called on to do so. My dilemma comes when one brother preaches well and another has criticized him because that person does not like his preaching stye. Drives me up the wall when Christians get hung up on styles and denominational precepts. The fact is, we must major on Jesus Christ and who he is, and who God the Father and God the Holy Spirit are, and we must set aside the fact that one preacher said a word you don't think he should have said to his church while you say another....what difference does it make? People are dying all around us! People are going to HELL and all you care about is semantics and Mary had a little lamb? For the love of God people are dying in their sins! Don't just sit there, get up and do something about it!

But if I say, "I will not mention him
or speak any more in his name,"
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot. Jeremiah 20:9

Preach the Word of God. Tell people they are going to die and go to hell. Tell them they can live forever with Jesus in heaven if they only repent, turn from their wicked ways and follow Christ. They shall be born again and have new life. Life that is full. Life that means something.

All will be judged according to their deeds: 27Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgment Hebrews 9:27

Friday, June 5, 2009

Jesus and Saul

I was listening to the Gospel of John and the Acts of the Apostles today and could not help wondering why the disciples and all of the people that were around Jesus and Saul (later called Paul) were so blatantly ignorant of the truth when it was right in their faces? I believe I heard Jesus say about 5 different times that he was the Christ and that he was God and that if they do not follow him, they will die! Or how many times did Paul get up before the Sanhedrin and tell the story of the Jews through their patriarchs and prophets, etc, all the way up through David's line to produce Jesus Christ? I was getting frustrated listening to the repetition, over and over again! Then I hear Paul say, "Fine, if you don't want to listen, then I will take the Gospel to the Gentiles!" Amen! How real is this issue today? We talk and talk until we are blue in the face and no one wants to listen. Fine, if you don't want God's grace and mercy through Jesus Christ, then you will be judged by Moses and the Law. I don't know about you but I want mercy, all I can get!

In my 31 years on this earth and 12 years following Jesus whole-heartedly, I have found that following Jesus is the hardest thing any person on this earth can do. I literally fail everyday to earn any place near my Savior because of my blatant turmoil of sin. There is barely a minute that goes by that temptation is not at my door knocking. Sometimes I turn my head, other times I dive right in. I guess Paul had it right when he called himself a wretched man. Jesus said that apart from Him we would have no place in his Kingdom, no one comes to the Father except through me, and I draw all men to myself. Praise Jesus for his sacrifice, as painful as his walk must have been, I thank him that he was not all talk.

Every day I long for a closer love with Jesus, I see that I am less worthy with every step I take toward him. I see my sin and tremble at the thought of Jesus seeing them too. I hate the sin that I have in my life and I do not live in guilt, but I live in a state of constant depravity. When I see one thing I do not want to do, then I turn my head and see another thing I do not want to do. This world has nothing for me!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

No real calling

I was thinking today that I have no real calling to do anything with my life. Everyone feels drawn to this or that, I feel drawn to go to sleep in my bed or drawn to eat at McDonald's. In this life it feels as if I have had passion for youth ministry for most of my adult life, but now days I feel completely drained of my passion to serve in any church on any staff of pastors. Some may ask why I feel the way I do. Well I think the answer is very simple, I don't like the way the church treats its people and the ones who serve as clergy do not always have the best intentions of the people in mind. Therefore, I cannot believe that the people "called" to be pastors and leaders of churches are all Godly people. Is someone who exorts their own agendas above that of God a true follower of God? Possibly that person has some sin issues to work out in their own life, but when more than one leader is in that predicament, then there are some serious issues that must be worked out. It is my understanding of the Bible that brings me to the conclusion about these certain people in leadership positions, that they should get their own house in order before they start working in God's house.

But then again, who am I to judge these men? Am I God? No, I am merely a man who has no calling and can make no decisions about his own path except to follow God and hope that one day he will be merciful enough to grant an answer to my prayers as to what to do with my life.

As I was listening to 1 and 2 Kings today I heard several times the speaker say as he was reading, "and God answered his prayer." How I longed for God to answer my prayers. Just one little prayer, let me hear your words!

Tomorrow I have to speak on friendship for HS YG. I get 10 whole minutes to talk about something I have rarely ever had in my 31 years on this earth. As I listened to the story of Jonathan and David today I thought that they had a good friendship, but what made it great? You never heard about them hanging out, going to football games together, hunting, or even fighting with each other. All I ever saw in their stories is that Jonathan saved David's butt a couple times from his demon-possessed father. So what makes a good friend? I have seen people who were BFF one week to bitter enemies the next. In my own life, I have been as loyal as a dog to all of my friends. But every single one of them has abandoned me for someone or something else. Why? Maybe it is me, maybe I am a freak, but at least I was always there when they needed me.

So tomorrow I talk about friendship and I have no friends, so that should be great!

The question remains, What should I do with my life? What is my calling?

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I wish I was as cool as my wife and I knew how to post pictures on my blog, but I have no idea. Anyways, I have taken up a new reading plan or two. I am reading through the Bible in a year through two plans and taking a 90 day challenge to read the entire Bible. So, this is a really intense amount of scripture to be reading. I am working 40+hours a week and trying to run HS YG and SS as well as seeing my family from time to time. Sometimes its worth it, being so busy that is, and sometimes I ask myself why I am doing this to myself and my family. I applied for a YP job last month and am still waiting to hear back for an official interview, but if the church wants me, I may very well take the job. I mean getting paid for doing what you love is a wonderful thing! I want that! The sad part is that it is not with the church I am currently at, the church I am at now is pretty cheap and would rather spend money on new chairs and carpet then pay someone to minister to their youth. Wow, I sound bitter! I guess I kinda am. I found out that they pay the normal guy a whopping $1200 a month to work there. Good thing he is working fulltime somewhere else. Why are churches so chinsey? They expect so much and give so little. Like, lets expect God to do amazing things with our church but just sit on our thumbs until he moves. God forbid that we actually get off our butts and start working for the King!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Blessed are the entitled for theirs has already been given to them.

Blessed are the entitled for theirs has already been given to them.....or maybe we should say, "Woe to the entitled for we cannot see how good we have it." I am convicted everyday that I learn more about myself and our generation of entitled, selfish and self-righteous people group. What is it that we think we deserve? We are the most endowed group of people to ever exist on this earth. More money, technology, education and power than ever before, so we think we deserve to have all things? I don't understand it! Why am I so entitled? If I really examine my entitlement issues it is really just pride and selfishness. So, why am I so proud? Why am I so selfish? I was never raised this way! I was raised to follow Jesus and to imitate Him. Jesus was never selfish or prideful! In fact, quite the contrary! Jesus was humble and made himself lowly in the face of his friends. Remember how he washed their feet and how he would never let anybody boast about how he had just healed them? Now that's something to brag about, and Jesus never did that.

I think there is something our generation is good at though, regardless of the selfish ambition. That is the reality that we are wrong. We can admit that. We can start a change and we can make something new happen in life. It is interesting that while we were still entitled Christ died for us. It is interesting that if we confess our entitlement, Jesus is faithful to forgive us. No matter what Jesus will forgive our entitlement and make us the lowly servants that we deserve to be. I say that we begin a new movement in our generation, we turn the established upside down as Jesus did in his day. I say we drop our rights, our priveledges, and our entitlement and pick up a wash basin and a towel and wash someone's feet. We are no better than anyone else, in fact let's be lower than everyone else. Let's change from the entitled to the humbled generation.

Narcissism, Self-love, Incurvatus in Se (Bent in on self). Is that what we have become? Or is that what we have always been? Maybe it has gotten so bad that we finally notice it. But maybe we are so bent in on ourselves that we don't care to do anything about it. Take notice of yourself, and then do as Jesus says, "The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, chief priests and teachers of the law, and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life." Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it." Luke 9:22-24 (NIV)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Blessed are the poor in spirit

I have been looking at Jesus' sermon on the mount, specifically the beatitudes up to this point and I am in awe of how deep just one verse goes! I feel like I am totally being wrecked by Jesus and his words. All he said was, "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." You look at that and you think no big deal right? WRONG!!! What does it mean to be poor in spirit? Who is poor in spirit? I have been thinking about this for a while now and have thought several different things. First I thought that being poor was literally not having any money or material possessions, or whatever. But now that I look at it, a person who is poor has no less than a rich person in spiritual standards! I have seen boasting with the poor man as much as with the rich man. But think of it this way: the poor in spirit are those that understand that there is nothing they can do in order to pay God back for the debt they owe him! WOW! It is being humble enough to know that you are not enough, you are not sufficient, you have nothing of value that you can give in order to be more spiritual. All you have is nothing! That nothingness is what God will fill with more of his spirit. We must decrease so that he may increase. Look at the parable of the tax collector and the pharisee, the pharisee comes to the temple boasting about how great he is because he gives so much to the temple tax and makes his sacrifices, etc. The tax collector comes before God and throws himself down crying out that he is unworthy to look up to the heavens. That is the poor in spirit. When we are rolling in the dust and honestly assessing the facts of our own spiritual inadequacies.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Relentless love

"How refreshing to know you don't need me. How amazing to find that you want me." Those are the words from a Casting Crowns song that have been going through my head for the last two days. I thank God that he doesn't need me, but at the same time I am always thankful that he wants me. Not that he has to have me around for anything other than his own enjoyment, but to know that he loves me and wants nothing more than to have a relationship with me that he will focus his immensity on me......Is there anything more pleasing than to know that the Father of fathers has acknowledged me as his son? Could I bring anything to him that he needs? I try and try to give him anything good that I have and it falls like rotting flowers before him. He wants me. That is all. Just me. Why? Why? Why? Is there an answer to this question or is it like trying to find one thing in an infinite space? I am thankful, truly thankful for one thing: There is no end to God's love. I have smacked God across the face, spit in his eyes and nailed him to a cross....yet there is no end to his love. He keeps coming after me. Relentlessly loving me. Why? To ignore him is to be in HELL. To follow him is to go through hell and come out a victor and a prince. Following Jesus, who loves endlessly, is no easy feat. I can no better become rich while I am a pauper. Nor can I love like him who loves me when I am without capability to love as he loves.

Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep." How can I take care of your sheep lord? Please show me. Let me have answers so I can do your will as you did your father's will, even unto death.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Why we do what we do?

It seems there are so many things people do to get them into trouble. I just read an article about two Israeli kids who decided it would be funny if they exchanged vows and rings. Well, according to Rabbinical Law all people need to do to get married is to exchange vows, rings and do it in front of witnesses. The girl is 14 and the boy is 17, unfortunately, they were married as part of a "fun" joke. The Rabbi's didn't think it was very funny and they proclaimed the marriage a divorce which inevitably becomes a disgrace to the girl and not to the boy. Why? What is the point of all of this garbage? Have you ever noticed that humor is completely different now days? Look at jackass and Bam Margera. What a bunch of losers! But the youth of today think they are amazing. If someone takes a crap in the middle of their kitchen and puts it on tv then it is considered hilarious? What the F@#$? If I broke my leg and someone put it on tv and people began laughing at it I wouldn't be very happy. I just don't get it, has society just become so corrupt that the only way we can laugh is to hurt someone? Whatever happened to slap-stick comedy, you know, when someone actually says something half-way witty and it makes sense!

Also, what's up with all the horror crap out there? Horror flicks and tv shows are the biggest thing out there these days. I think it is sad that people want to be scared, they want to feel something so bad that they are willing to let it happen through scare tactics and not through love and compassion.

Ever look at Craigslist and see the personal adds? How about all those people out there putting themselves out on the meat market. They can't meet people in real life, so they put their flesh out on craigslist in order to feel like they are worth something.

If you haven't noticed, our society happens to be in a moral downturn unlike has ever been seen. Filth, corruption and evil run and control this earth with such complete anonymity that people do not understand that they are being sucked into a hole so deep and so black and dark, that by the time they wake up to see where they are, they find they are in a certain kind of hell that will not go away with human cures. Nobody can cure you for all the evil you have committed.

At least the way things look we should all be hopeless and depressed. We should be looking for anything and everything that will please us, a world of hedonism. But wait, isn't that what kind of world we are in right now? Anything goes, nothing is impossible, even for the poorest people on earth. Anyone can become what this world calls free, and still be as bound and locked up as the foulest con on deathrow. Is there any hope? Can anyone free us from this pit of dispair?

Not to be cliche, but I believe there is a way out, a way of freedom. It is no secret and it's free. The problem is, it's the hardest thing for a person on this earth to do. The way out of dispair and death is through Jesus Christ. He lived and died the perfect man and while fulling being God never imposed his deity on humankind in order to have his way, only the way of his father. The way of his father was that he die for all people because he loved us so much. Believing in Jesus is easy, understanding the basic concepts of what he did seems to make sense, but what is hard is that you must follow Jesus and the way of the father just as Jesus did when he was on earth.

Following Jesus is hard, but if it keeps me from the pits of hell and keeps me close to him, then I will do whatever I can in order to stay with him.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Moving to the Claw

So me and the fam will be moving the Claw in a couple weeks and we are stoked. I am trying to find some suckers to buy my Plymouth minivan and my Pontiac minivan. I guess I bought them in the first place, so there must be at least one more sucker out there to buy them from me. Anyways, I am still waiting for someone from the church to call me and let me know if they want me to lead their YG. If they do, that would be awesome. My other job is trying to open another location in the Claw in which I would be leading as well. So if this all works out then we will be in the Claw for more than just living, work as well.

It seems like everything is going in a positive direction, that is why I feel pessimistic towards everything. It seems like when everything goes well there is always something that goes wrong to ruin the hopes that we have. I just want everything to go well so that my family will have more and we can prosper. That is all.

Friday, February 13, 2009

My wife sleeps like a bear!

You wouldn't know it by looking at her, but my wife snores like a logger! It's incredible the kind of noise she makes. Not only does she snore, but she grinds her teeth! Uhhh! It makes me cringe. It's kinda weird to think that in a few minutes, I will be sleeping next to her and I will be snoring too. I know I don't grind my teeth though. I don't know how she still has teeth in her mouth, seriously! Anyways, tomorrow me and the little logger will be going to P-town to have a little vacation of our very own. The kids will be at g-ma's and we will be all alone. It's freaky thinking about being alone the whole time. No kids, no responsibility, shoot, maybe I will break the law....nah.

So these blog things are kinda fun. I guess you're supposed to "write" in them all the time. I think my blog won't be about anything important, just run of the mill kinda stuff. Welcome to my pathetic life, I hope you enjoy the things to come.